The only thing that I have learned that you can ever depend on anyone from is to depend on being let down. You can't depend on a single soul in this world but your own damn self. It is best to keep your expectations reasonable and you won't be disappointed because you only ever expect to be disappointed. If only they ever made a drug that can make me completely forget myself forever. I am alive and well and I am not suicidal but I just wish that I could not be anymore My heaven is to simply be erased from the memory of everything that could ever remember anything.... Call me pessimistic but that would be nice. Call me an optimist but I hope for a better place but I really don't hold my breath for it. I suppose an agnostic would best describe me
Sleep is the best drug you can ever have. I can't even tell you the last time I have slept more than 5 hours. I just want to sleep more than I could ever hope to. My ideal vacation is just asleep for 48 hours I feel like I would be reborn. You have ever worked nights for multiple years you would probably understand what I'm saying Now do this while you are watching your loved one die and the only thing you can really do is go to work and go to sleep and hope to have a few hours a day to take someone to the doctor and maybe you can make a difference you hope I sit here and spill my guts because there is really no one else to listen to me. I hope maybe karma is real and maybe one day someone actually gives two little s**** about me.... But I am truly not holding my breath for that day to come..... I would be a real idiot to hold my breath Maybe I spend my life savings just getting on a motorcycle and going camping around the country or building a ramshackle houseboat and doing nothing at all but sitting there all day and fishing. They say don't put your job until you have one but if you never make any time for yourself then you will be guaranteed that you will never have any time for yourself. I have about a year of income in my savings and I am about ready to take 3 months off and just do whatever the hell I want
I'm sorry to hear about your situation. I just wanted to let you know that I will pray for your loved one and for you. Going through my divorce made me concentrate on healing myself and rebuilding my life. 3 years later, it's still a work in progress. Realizing that others may have worse situations and encouraging them is a big step for me. I really do with wish you well.
Thank you Texan, I actually slept for 12 hours shortly after writing that. Feeling much better. Prayers are much appreciated
This is what healed me in a similar situation: Fly to Paris, enter the high speed train (350 km/h) to Bordeaux, change the train to Bayonne and finally to Saint-Jean-Pied-de-Port. Here is the beginning of the famous Saint-James-Way (Film "The Way") and you will walk on your own feet 790 km to Santiago de Compostela. Normally you will reach Santiago in 32 days. Reduce your life and your stress to walk, eat, and sleep. Sleep in albergues with ten or even 40 pilgrims in one room, half of them snoring: You will sleep like a stone, 8 to 10 hours. After 32 (or maybe 25 or 40) days you will be healthy in body, mind, and soul. You will have lots of new friends, from all over the world, you'll meet lots of US-citizens, and it's really cheap: 3-course Dinner with wine or water 12 €, breakfast 4 €, for the night bed and shower 12 € coffee on thy way 1,50 € or cheaper.
A 10 mile long dirt road out into the middle of nowhere. Breaking down here would suck if you had no one to call. The Peace River in minor flood stage, what's happened right around 11 ft and it's a bit over 12 ft. If we get hit with a hurricane now it will be another major flood. Last time was 24 ft. Imagine over 10 more foot of water where these pictures are.
@FatBack - my condolences. Thank you for sharing; sometimes just letting go of stuff helps. (Beautiful picks of the scary road, lol.)
$2500 to take down 2 tall poplars, an elm doomed to fall, and the remnants of a thick-trunked maple with the top sheared off, carry away the brush and trunks but leave the smaller limbs for firewood. Probably cheap really but it will sting for a few weeks. After that the peace of mind knowing I won't need a tree guy again for a decade will be priceless (*knocks on wood*). I'll just stack the firewood by the road as a cut it. Someone will take it with winter coming. I've never had a problem with it not disappearing within the first few hours I put it out there before.
Thankfully it wasn't that bad around here people on the coast and parts North had it far worse. We might have got 5 in of rain and saw gust up to 50 miles an hour. Hurricane Ian 2 years ago had sustained winds of at least 120 miles an hour with gust up to 150 for 4 hours here along with at least a foot of rain. Truly the worst case scenario, where it gets on top of you and just sits there and sits there and keeps dumping rain and huge wind damage at the same time
Good to hear, Fatback. We had quite the gusty day, here, yesterday. It’s all gone, now. We only got 2-3” of rain.
I guess if it hits Texas just right and heads that way. Not up on my Texas geography but it seems like Galveston Bay might be that area? Kind of close to the Mexican border? My mama once lived in Harlingen which I think is right near there
Been extra rainy today off the hurricane remnants, Fortunately the wind stayed up high so not a lot of ground damage. Just one of those quirky things where you can hear it and see clouds roaring by, but on the surface it is just somewhat breezy.
we are on the Mexican border across from the state of Chihuahua. That is why it takes a strong storm to push rain in tour Valley.
My brother moved from The Keys to the mountains in NC. He lives in a town of a few hundred. He was inundated with rain from this storm. To quote, “I left Florida to get away from this ****!” We haven’t heard from him; the entire state was without power and presumably, cell service, yesterday. Still waiting to hear, but they are high up, so I’m not worried about them flooding out, or anything.
Had a tornado nearby yesterday. Did the obligatory mobile home toss and damaged several roofs, but fairly localized to one part of one road. Very nice overcast day today though. Just doing some of the last minute work getting ready to open my own business Tuesday. Have paying work to do but still need to try to tame the chaos of setting up and organized. That'll probably take me at least a week more.
We got some wind and 9 inches of rain from Helene. A lot of springs are springing up from all of the rain. Roy’s a landmark place to eat in Steinhatchee is gone. Helene destroyed it. Roy’s was famous for their seafood dinners, the seafood was great.
Think positive someone may decide to leave and sell you their spot. You never know what the future holds.